Well, I have really no idea how to put this feeling as.. it sucks truly. I sort things out with her. But.. somehow.. I have a really weird feeling in me... its like i duno.. something annoying.. argh.. I need advice now... I guess its cause I myself cant accept the fact that i really do miss her.. well.. I guess the other side is telling me what and idiot I have been.... well.. I have no idea how to put things straight. argh.. How i wish things were better... screw myself kay. its all my fault.. haiz. I really dont how to move on.. its like navigating thru a forest a guide comes and direct you the way and half way thru he dissapear leaving you in the forest. you continue walking and fall in a pit a pit where you manage to climb out put appear infront of a sign board, which says go left to the native tribes, go right home. this sucks. Well.. screw me:D screw it. and while walking there are snakes and obstacles biting you at every corner. the worst one which is the sun which shines on you every day and leaves you in coldness everynight.. I hate it.. I really miss you.. I really am crazy.. I really am stupid..